Husband Cheating After 36 Years In Marriage.

by Clare
(NJ)

I have known my husband for 40 years, and have been married to him for 36 years. Three years ago he started an affair with a woman from work.

She's not a nice woman. She knew from the beginning that I loved husband and wrote in a letter to me that she enjoyed having sex with him!

Our marriage had grown stale for many reasons. He is adamant about not coming back into the marriage. We had a divorce set up last month.And all that time he kept telling me he did not want to divorce, although he continued to see this affair partner.

Two days before the divorce, while in prayer, I heard God telling me not to divorce him. I answered him, "but I'll look like a fool!" The answer was, "it doesn't matter. Pray for him instead." I have prayed for him, and have felt some peace. But since I have started praying, I have seen less and less of my husband.

I am doubting myself as to whether I really heard God say that to me. I had asked for signs to tell me that I was doing the right thing, and I did receive them.

I have never been alone in all of my 61 years. Being totally alone, especially on the weekends if I don't have anything planned, terrifies me. It is the loneliness that scares me so much because it has been three years now, and I have not yet begun to heal.

I still cry all the time. In my heart, I feel that because my husband had exposed himself to live porn for many years, that he had let evil into his life. Even though this sounds weird, I feel that this woman is being strongly influenced by the Devil, and that my husband seems to be doing everything she tells him to do even though that is not his nature to obey a woman.

I miss my husband terribly and if people would like to pray with me I am usually praying around 9 o'clock at night Eastern time. It is hard to keep the faith, and to believe that a miracle could happen here. I hope it does.