okayibelieve

My husband and I have been 31 years in marriage. He put his job first and we have had very little intimacy. I have been on the other end of emotional, mental, verbal, sexual and spiritual abuse (mocking and scoffing).

He was in the military 24 of those years and gone from our bed even half of that. There was sexual abuse in that he filmed us with a camcorder while we were making love. I had no idea, until I found the video. He has never cared about this effect on me. All of this has had a profound negative effect on my health. When I am gone to church, he brings another woman into my house around my children. Today, a perfume I was familiar with was very prominent in my child's bedroom.

I have been seeking God to change me for some time. But there comes a time when we both need to take responsibility for our personal junk. He has also ran us into financial ruin, keeping me in the dark about our financial situation. I am going to stand one last time, after all our LORD came back to life. Thank you for agreeing with me.